I live in the Los Angeles area and I HATE flying into LAX (the Los Angeles International Airport for those lucky souls who haven't had the experience of dealing with the chaos of that airport). I usually will find a way to route my flights so I don't have to deal with LAX. There's one exception though and that's when I fly internationally. Sounds bizarre? Maybe. The reason I do like it is for the warm "Welcome Home!" When an American Citizen goes through customs at LAX you have a genuinely nice Customs Agent that says, "Welcome Home," as you enter the customs area. The last time I checked into customs at LAX was returning from a 20 something hour flight from China & I really needed that kind of welcome. It felt awesome and I was glad to be "home," and having a restored sense of familiarity.
My guess is that everyone wants a sense of "home" but that feeling of home has been complicated for me. I grew up both on the East Coast & the West Coast so when people ask me, "where are you from" I get an exasperated feeling of thinking, "do I really want to go into this whole story?" Mostly people ask me this, possibly, because they are trying to figure me out. I don't think I have a vibe of exactly "where I'm from." And the honest answer is, 'I don't know exactly." I want to respond, the universe, or "I'm on the planet just like you," but that might invite a more bizarre reaction. I've been writing more on my empathic abilities. When you are an empath, you can pick up social cues & get an understanding of how to fit into, well, anywhere. So I adapt to my surroundings and might give off the feeling I belong even though in my reality, I might still feel alien. I can adapt to the surroundings but it doesn't necessarily feel like I fit in. I appreciate this ability but I do question, "where's my identity." So for a few years I have been working on creating boundaries so I'm not as adaptable. I want to find the fit that works for me instead of me working for "it".
I still haven't found that place of, "Oh this is it for me" in the physical earth space, but I feel I have found my spiritual & emotional "home". I recently joined an online Empath support group. I had no idea how I sorely needed this until I joined. Though I've known some empaths through the years I have never been surrounded by so many souls similar to me. All of us empaths are our own people just like anyone is an individual among a group but we have so many commonalities with our abilities. I no longer feel that sense of isolation that I had developed in which I told myself, "no one in the world can really understand me." There are actually people out there; I just had to put down my guard and find it.
Once I joined the group, I dove right in. Normally, I'm more reserved but I felt comfortable enough to embrace everything there and I joined a few groups. I introduced myself and said, "HI". I got immediate responses. One especially struck me and inspired this post. My fella empath greeted me with, "Welcome home Jen!" And I knew she was right. I really have. And I'm grateful to the universe that we have a place where we can bond, enjoy ourselves and be understood. I feel more myself again and back on path where I can flow in a positive direction.
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